"You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be – white dress, prince charming who’d carry you away to a castle on a hill. You’d lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa clause, the tooth fairy, prince charming –they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true. "
When I was a little girl I believed it all and slowly one by one it all began to fade until one day there was no more Santa Clause's there were no more Tooth Fairies, and definitely no more Princes. I grew up. I didn't have the white dress when getting married nor did I have everything else that went along with it. I am not jaded or anything I just more of a realist.
Okay lets rewind...fresh out of high school, ready for college I had the world at my feet and I thought for sure I would be something great. A GREAT Business woman, living in a high rise and honestly in love with the perfect man. Okay so, none of that has happen is my life terrible? FAR FROM IT. I am a single mom, kinda proud of that fact not so fact that my marriage failed but more so that I am able to raise a very well behaved, loving child. I just started a new job where I really enjoy it. I can tell it is going to be very challenging yet I will enjoy every second of it. Are you kidding? Learning something new everyday. How can I complain? I don't have a terrible life in the least just not what I expected.
Every time I have ever started falling for someone it has been head over heels don't look back and JUMP with both feet. What happens? Every time I get shown that it isn't what I thought it would be. Well to be honest the next time it wont be that way. kinda like when you are on the beach(even though I haven't been there) you get a little wet then slowly move forward that is what I want something that I can grow into. Someone I can grow with.
Not just jump in and say okay here we are, and it is to late to turn back now. I really been wondering lately if there is something wrong with that, is it just me or is it really that the WHOLE world is rush rush rush. We rush into marriage, we rush into divorce. We rush to have kids and then want to rush them to grow up. What is wrong with taking our time and enjoying the things around us. I find myself telling Jordon that alot lately don't be in such a rush to grow up. He is always asking what age do I have to be to do this or that? With the snow today we did go out and play for a little bit after shoveling the snow.
Anyways maybe that is just the fairytale thing coming back to me. Maybe I am still looking for the prince charming to come and sweep me off my feet. Maybe I am not so much of a realist after all maybe I have a good mixture of dreamer and realist I know what is real but I still wish for that perfect life. And just maybe....


"It’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of faith and hope that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true. At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale is slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happily ever after – just that it’s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in awhile, people may even take your breath away. "

Again quotes comming from Grey's